Ever-Changing Tech of Scientology
essay about her perspective on Scientology
auditing inspired me to write something about auditing myself.
sixteen years in the Sea Org. For twelve of those years I
was what they call a technical person, or techie. To be a
techie in Scientology means you are involved in auditing preclears,
training auditors and course supervisors, or correcting Scientologists
who misapply L. Ron Hubbard's auditing tech. Other people
in Scientology take care of the administrative side of things.
A techie does nothing but take care of the tech.
the course of twelve years I studied and participated in every
aspect of Scientology tech. Throughout that time there was
only one thing that remained constant: the tech changed all
the time. It is the ever-changing tech in Scientology that
I want to write about today.
of all, I'll tell you about my introduction to the tech. Everything
I'm going to say is based on my personal observations within
Scientology and the Sea Org from the years 1976-1992.
in Scientology started at the big blue Scientology complex
in Los Angeles, the complex that used to be Cedars of Lebanon
Hospital before Scientology bought it. . This was back in
1976. At that time I had been in Scientology for less than
four months and I didn't like it. So I told a guy named Wayne
Marple that I wanted to leave Scientology and the Sea Org.
Wayne was a member of the Commodore's Messenger Org, or CMO,
which meant it was like talking directly to LRH himself when
you talked to Wayne. I was only twenty-two, and I sure didn't
know anything about how the CMO or the Sea Org worked.
have to understand that what I didn't know at the time was
this: Wayne Marple was in charge of renovating the entire
complex of buildings that Scientology had just purchased for
cash. He needed a huge construction crew, and he wasn't about
to let anyone go once he had his hands on them. That included
minutes of my announcement, I was hauled away by no less than
five Sea Org guys, all RPFers, who locked me in a room. They
told me the only way I would be allowed to leave Scientology
or the Sea Org was via the Rehabilitation Project Force -
the RPF. I thought this was a joke. There was no way I could
be held prisoner by these people I hardly knew. My first thought
was to escape and run to the police. But I couldn't get away.
I was physically hauled off to the RPF and there was nothing
I could do. I was a little skinny kid back then. These were
big, strong, crazy guys who took me away and I was scared
days and weeks went by I came to feel there was no escape
for me. I was under guard day and night, locked in a room
on the seventh floor of the building known as Lebanon Hall,
writing up O/Ws under orders of Wayne Marple. Being just barely
twenty-two, I started to freak out. I told my captors I just
wanted to go home. I begged them to please just let me leave.
But these RPFers just laughed. They told me I had to do the
RPF auditing program to get out and the sooner I started it
the sooner I'd get out. I tried to explain to them that I
didn't want auditing or Scientology at all, that it was not
for me, but to no avail. Emotional trauma aside, I decided
I had to start doing something to get out and if that something
was auditing, then I'd better get started.
was how I got started on the Bridge to Total Freedom.
than three months I didn't have to be watched any more. I
no longer felt terrified at being held captive. Now they allowed
me to be part of the construction crew to renovate the Complex.
I was in a dorm with seven other guys, in the tunnels under
the buildings. There were no lights down there except in the
halls, so when they turned the lights off at night it was
pitch black. I knew my family and friends were wondering why
they didn't see or hear from me any more, but I didn't much
care. I was on a new program. Everything I had thought about
life was changing. I just felt emotionally numb.
said, my first perception of auditing was that it was something
I had to do to get out of the situation I was in. I didn't
feel like I needed "therapy" or "training."
I never considered that auditing was something I personally
needed, but something was happening to me mentally because
I resisted Scientology less and less. Stacy's conclusions
about what can happen to a person as a result of auditing
-- false memory, mental conditioning, extreme irresponsibility
- that was what the lower levels of auditing were all about
eighteen months, I was allowed to graduate from the RPF. This
was because the renovations of the Complex were finished,
so a CMO mission fired into the RPF to get us all off of it
and get us posted in the orgs. While I was in the RPF, my
idea had been to learn as much as I could about the tech as
quickly as possible because I had it in my head that that
was how I could get out of there. So I learned all about the
tech and held technical positions while I was in the RPF.
Because of this, the mission decided to put me on a tech post
when I got off the RPF. That was how I started on the road
to being a techie for as long as I was in Scientology.
organization had just been formed to get staff up the Bridge.
When two people audit each other while they are learning how
to audit it is called co-auditing. That is how people get
their auditing on the RPF, so I had a lot of experience with
co-auditing by then. The Los Angeles area was known in the
Sea Org (and still is, by the way) as Pacific Area Command,
or PAC. So this new org was called the PAC Co-Audit Org. I
was posted as a co audit supervisor. I finished my Grades
auditing while I was working in the PAC Co-Audit Org, and
in 1978 I attested to Dianetic Clear.
I went over to the Advanced Organization in Los Angeles, AOLA,
to start my OT levels. Prior to Scientology, I had a real
thirst to understand more about the spiritual aspects of life.
I wanted to know if it was really possible for a person to
be able to leave their body and do "soul traveling."
result of my study of Hubbard's work, I thought maybe there
were answers to my questions in Scientology. I thought I would
find these answers on the OT levels.
I go on, I feel it is important to relate a story to you so
you'll understand why I was in such a hurry to get onto my
a dear friend in Scientology. Out of respect for his privacy
I won't say his name. I'll just call him Tom. We had gotten
into the Sea Org at the same time and we were good friends.
His mother was not on staff. She was on lines at AOLA as a
public Scientologist. I enjoyed meeting with Tom and his mother
because she always carried a copy or two of the Advance Magazine,
which is a publication about the OT services at AOLA. Tom's
mother would tell us about her new "abilities" resulting
from auditing on the OT levels. She would tell us how she
was able to move objects with her mind alone, influence others
with non-verbal thought as well as leaving her body and experiencing
realities outside of the normal earth experience.
I just couldn't wait for the next Advance Magazine to come
out to read about how AOLA was making these OTs with these
incredible abilities. Tom's mother was a very caring and mild-mannered
person and I revered her. Looking back on it, Tom's mother
influenced me to "keep going up the bridge" so that
I would one day become OT like she was. It became easier for
me to tolerate disappointment in Scientology auditing because
here was at least one person that I knew who had achieved
a "higher consciousness and ability" because of
the OT levels. She gave me hope that I would one day achieve
these abilities myself. She had also explained to me and Tom
that she was taking a great risk in telling us her OT abilities
because Scientologists are not allowed to talk about their
auditing or sessions except to their auditor and case supervisor,
and we knew that.
one day in particular. Tom came running over to see me, all
excited. He said he met his mother for dinner at the Celebrity
Centre, and she was feeling kind of spaced out so he took
her for a walk. As they approached a tranquil, wooded area,
they stopped for a moment. His mother looked up at the trees
and pointed to a small branch on one of the trees. This little
branch was moving, ever so slightly, and she told Tom that
she was making that little branch move with her mind.
so excited about this that he had to tell me right away, and
it made me very hopeful that I would be able to do that kind
of thing myself when I got onto my OT levels.
summer of 1978 I started on OT 1. These were the old OT levels,
because the new OT levels didn't come out until 1979.
involved going out in the streets and noticing things, from
what I can remember. This in itself was disappointing to me,
as I had already gone through this "noticing things"
-- many senseless things - when I did "objective processes"
in the RPF.
of objective processing is a process called "Operating
Procedure by Duplication." Op Pro by Dup for short. The
exact procedure for Op Pro by Dup is to have two tables about
10 feet away from each other. The auditor places a book on
one table and a bottle - like a Coke bottle or whatever --
on the other. The auditor and preclear stand close to each
other and the auditor gives commands to the preclear. The
commands, as I recall them, are:
at that book. Good. Walk over to that book. Good. Pick it
up. Good. What is its color? Good. What is its weight? Good.
What is its temperature? Good. Put the book down in the exact
same place. Good. Look at that bottle. Good. Walk over to
it. Good. Pick it up. Good. What is its color? Good. What
is its weight? Good. What is its temperature? Good. Put it
down in exactly the same place."
is done over and over. The commands are enforced by the auditor,
even if the auditor has to drag the preclear's unconscious
body back and forth making him execute the commands. On the
RPF, everybody had to do this Op Pro by Dup for a minimum
of 25 hours. This is done to condition the preclear to accept
control, with or without the pre-clear's cooperation.
did this in one big room, so I had a chance to see bottles
getting smashed and books being ripped up when people got
sick and tired of doing this. But there were plenty more bottles
and books available to get them through the process.
by Dup is just one example of an objective process. There
are a lot of others, like the one where the auditor sits in
a chair facing the preclear and says, "Give me that hand.
Thank you. Give me that hand. Thank you. Give me that hand.
Thank you," for hours until the preclear has some kind
of cognition. There is another one where the auditor tells
the preclear to look at different things in the environment.
It goes like this: "Look at that tree. Thank you. Look
at that flagpole. Thank you. Look at that power line. Thank
you. Look at that bird. Thank you." On and on. Needless
to say, I had had enough of these objective processes on the
RPF. I didn't want any more on OT 1.
my supervisor at AOLA sent me out on the streets to do OT
1 she told me not to get into it too much. She said people
usually finished it in one to two solo sessions. She was right.
I was bored with OT 1 before I walked out the door but I did
suffer through a couple of sessions to look good. I forget
what new "OT ability" I was required to attest to
for old OT 1. As I recall it had something to do with getting
reoriented to the physical universe now that I was Clear.
As I said earlier, OT 1 was senseless and boring.
was senseless, but not boring. OT 2 is a series of "implants"
that contained "dichotomies" as part of the implants.
One definition of an implant is "an unwilling and unknowing
receipt of a thought or the intentional installation of fixed
ideas." (This definition is eerily similar to what I
experienced when I first made it known that I wanted to leave
Scientology.) Dichotomies are defined as pairs of opposites,
like dark and light, good and bad, hot and cold, things like
for running OT 2 were to get the idea of the dichotomies over
and over while running out the implants, and this was supposed
to produce E-meter reads. I don't remember all of the "implants"
associated with OT 2. I only "ran out" two "implants"
before I was allowed to attest to OT 2. I will describe them
as best I can from memory. The first implant was called the
"electrical Implant." I was supposed to imagine
an electrical force going through my body while I read through
the dichotomies, like this: "hot, hot, hot, hot, hot,
hot, hot..." You keep thinking that word as long as you're
getting reads on the meter. Then you say, "cold, cold,
cold, cold, cold, cold..." until that doesn't read any
more. Then you say them together: "hot, cold, hot, cold,
hot, cold.." until you don't get any more reads on that.
At the same time I had to imagine an electrical force going
through my body as I experienced these dichotomies.
implant was called "Tocky." On this one I had to
get E-meter reads on the dichotomies while imagining a sun
swinging from east to west. I remember becoming extremely
disoriented and confused while attempting to imagine all of
these things. It got so bad at one point I had to take a break
because I thought I was going to throw up my lunch. I also
got a very bad headache and ended up doing a "correction
list" on myself to find my "errors."
OT 2 was a huge disappointment, but I just kept on smiling.
I was sent to the examiner to attest to OT 2. The ability
gained on OT 2 was "freedom from whole track incidents."
This was supposed to be a whole new level of OT ability that
I had achieved in Scientology. All of this was leading up
to the crown jewel of all of Scientology, the dreaded Wall
of Fire, OT 3.
attesting to "OT 2" I immediately routed on to the
OT 3 course and I was so excited. Now the end would justify
the means. All of the degradation of the RPF and the staff
experience itself would prove to be worth what I was about
to receive. With my heart racing, I got my OT 3 pack and quietly
sat down to get my fair share of OT abilities. It was less
than a half hour before the lunch break when I got to the
Xenu story. As I read the Xenu story a sense of dread overcame
me. I couldn't fathom how the Xenu story was going to make
me into an OT and I became furious with myself and everyone
else around me. The lunch bell rang in the classroom and I
was out the door, not to be seen or heard from in that course
room again for weeks.
I "blew" the course room I started calling my family
again to see if there was any way they would have me back.
I asked my father about different job opportunities in his
area. I considered using an academic scholarship I had received
to go to the University of Louisiana to get a real education.
So many things went through my mind. Well, finally the ethics
officer and the course supervisor came and rounded me up.
They sat with me in the course room and would not let me leave.
I was told I needed to start auditing on OT 3 immediately
or risk sickness or even death.
put full time in the OT 3 course room until I "understood"
the material and was able to audit it. I can't say what happened
to my mind after starting OT 3 but in no time I was "locating"
and "blowing" body thetans. Within the Sea Org and
Scientology, there is a certain "status" given to
those who are on or have completed OT levels. Scientologists
gather around and clap like crazy for people who are OT. Much
more is expected of an OT; they don't have emotions and they
are expected to be able to do just about anything. OTs are
encouraged to use their OT abilities and it used to be a crime
in Scientology to invalidate an OT. I soon learned that even
if nothing is happening in your OT auditing, at least you
have the status of being OT, which means you're special to
the group. As an OT I thought I would be treated special.
Just like in the earlier auditing, something took over and
my attitude changed about the OT levels. I just had to put
my nose to the grindstone and continue. The group agreement
seemed to make it tolerable.
was a rehash of the Clearing Course. It was required that
I "mock up" the bank again and again, only to make
it disappear over and over and over. When I attested to OT
4, I had the sensation of having been on a Ferris wheel for
a week straight.
was similar to OT 1 in that I found myself in the street again
putting "thoughts" in people, plants and animals.
was way different from any other OT level I'd done so far.
On this level I was required to lie on a bed with my head
pointed magnetic north and meditate until I floated out of
my body. Now this is what I came for! I tried doing this over
and over. Per the LRH written instruction, I was to leave
my body, go to a foreign country and get a stranger to mail
me a post card. Once I produced the post card I would be allowed
to attest to OT 6.
much effort I couldn't float out of my body at all. I never
even made it out of the auditing room and soon lost interest
in the level altogether. According to the OT 6 material, if
a person is not able to leave the body its because they have
"fleas" or more body thetans. So I was on a treadmill
of looking for more BTs and trying to float out of my head
and go to another country.
as I was beginning to accept the miserable reality that I
could never finish OT 6, the tech changed! Hubbard had discovered
a Ridge on the Bridge, and he had solved it by coming up with
New Era Dianetics for OTs, or NOTs.
OT levels were canceled and replaced with new OT levels. NOTs
handled BTs that had been comatose for centuries, perhaps
even millions of years. By asking a BT What are you? Who are
you? they would wake up and blow.
change had a profound effect on Scientology income, because
all of the earlier "failed" OTs now had something
else to spend their money on, and they did in droves.
stayed the same, but OT levels 4-7 changed completely. The
new OT levels 4-7 dealt exclusively with getting rid of comatose
BTs. Come to find out, these BTs made up what most people
perceive as the physical universe around us. All BTs had to
be gotten rid of before any OT could stabilize and realize
their true abilities. This new discovery by Hubbard explained
all earlier failures in making OT's!
NOTs course was issued, and a mad panic ensued to train auditors
and case supervisors to deliver the new OT levels internationally.
I was sent down to Flag to be one of the people that trained
the auditors and case supervisors, and this was a very daunting
task. David Mayo was the person who introduced NOTs to everyone,
and he was traveling back and forth from Int (Gilman Hot Springs)
to Flag (Clearwater) every month. He would instruct us to
train the students to audit in a certain way, but then when
he came back the next month to check on how everyone was doing,
it would all change. Every time David came the "tech"
changed, so what an auditor learned in March would change
a lot of trouble training the NOTs auditors. Some auditors
grumbled that Mayo was making up the NOTs tech as he went
along. Others were upset because they thought Mayo had a hidden
data line to LRH. In Scientology, a "hidden data line"
means someone is getting info from LRH that isn't written
in a policy, bulletin or tape. In fact, as I would learn when
I was promoted to RTC three years later, Mayo was making it
up as he went along because he was the main author of the
NOTs tech. It was also true that he had a hidden data line
to LRH because Mayo had been auditing LRH on NOTs before anyone
else knew anything about it. Mayo's name was on every bulletin
concerning NOTs, and rightly so, because he wrote the bulletins.
in 1982, LRH got the idea that Mayo was sympathetic to the
mission holders, who were trying to take over Scientology,
or so LRH thought. So LRH ordered that Mayo be taken off post
as Senior Case Supervisor International - Senior C/S Int,
that is. He ordered him and all the Senior C/S Int staff onto
the Running Program, had them all labeled security risks,
and finally had them all declared Suppressive. (Mayo opened
his own auditing center, known as the Advanced Ability Center,
in Santa Barbara after he was booted out by LRH. I was one
of the people in charge of sending plants into the AAC to
make sure it was totally destroyed, and we succeeded in destroying
Mayo and his center.)
a RICO suit against Mayo, because he had AAC centers all over
the world and Mayo's centers were making a lot more money
than the Scientology orgs were. The RICO charges were based
on the idea that Mayo had stolen the NOTs materials. Mayo's
defense was that he had been the primary author of the materials
anyway. The suit went on and on, and it was becoming clear
that Mayo was going to win the suit. So finally RTC offered
Mayo a hefty settlement in return for keeping his mouth closed
about being the main author of the NOTs materials. The last
I heard of Mayo, he was driving a Ferrari.
1982 I was ordered to go to Gilman Hot Springs, aka Gold,
aka the home of International Management including RTC, CMO
Int and WDC, to get Int management corrected on their application
of LRH administrative and auditing tech. David Miscavige,
who by then was the head of Scientology, studied my personnel
information and approved me for the job. (I've written extensively
about "Gilman Hot Springs" before. If you want to
see these earlier writings go to Charlotte
Cates' web site.
I got to Int, the tech changed radically and often, depending
upon the whim of the moment. Here are some of the changes
LRH himself threw out the Auditor's Code when a person
was being security checked. I know this to be true because
LRH sent the order directly to me. He told me that when
someone was suspected of being a security risk, I should
forget about making sure they had enough to eat or enough
sleep before starting the security check. LRH himself
ordered me to sec check Mayo when he had little to no
sleep. Another important part of the Auditor's Code
was cancelled by LRH went it came to security checking
- I was ordered to evaluate for the people I sec checked.
There were a long list of people who were in ethics
trouble with Mayo, including Kerry Gleason, Peter Warren,
John Axel, Julie Gillespie, Merrill Mayo, John Nelson,
and others. LRH sent down orders telling me what their
crimes were and ordering me to get them to confess.
I was the one who had to do the sec checks on all of
these people. I would sit there and tell them, for example,
"OK, I know you've been taking bribes from mission
holders. Now tell me about it." And I was to keep
at it with them until they confessed how much they had
taken in bribes. This kind of evaluative, confrontational
sec checking began with LRH orders to me in 1982 and
has continued ever since, as far as I know. I do know
for sure that this kind of security checking was used
on Stacy Brooks and Vaughn Young, because they have
told me about their experiences.
In 1986, Miscavige was in negotiations with the IRS
and the IRS people were telling him they hated the offensive
language about the IRS in certain policies. So Miscavige
told them, no problem, he would have those offensive
passages deleted from the policies. That was why certain
LRH policies were altered. It was to please the IRS
and get tax exemption. I don't know if LRH knew about
these alterations or not. I tend to doubt it since he
died in January 1986.
Starting in 1982, the policies on ethics or justice
recourse were virtually cancelled. As an example, at
the 1982 San Francisco Mission Holders' meeting, any
mission holder who did not instantly agree to comply
with the orders he was given by Miscavige or any of
the Finance Police was declared a Suppressive on the
spot. No Committee of Evidence, no recourse at all.
When I fired on mission to Flag with Miscavige, Vicki
Aznaran, Mark Yager, Mark Ingber, and Wendell Reynolds
to find out what was going on in the Flag Service Org
because stats were down, we declared public and staff
on the spot. Wayne Marple was declared like that. So
was Ken Urquhardt, a Class 12 auditor. This kind of
heavy ethics with no recourse is continuing to this
day, as evidenced by reports like the one posted by
Mike McClaughry, who was declared for pointing out that
six month sec checks on OT 7s are off policy.
In 1983 LRH sent me an order in which he said he was
tired of hearing about people being PTS (meaning Potential
Trouble Source). He said people were only pretending
to be PTS to hide their crimes. This is where Pretended
PTS comes from. This is how the False Purpose Rundown
was born. I was the pilot auditor for the FPRD, and,
again, sleep and food were not prerequisites for this
kind of auditing.
LRH also sent me an order telling me that no matter
where a person was on the Bridge, they could be pulled
off their auditing if they weren't moving fast enough
and put on the False Purpose Rundown. This effectively
cancelled the Non-Interference Zone, which is the main
subject of C/S Series 73, the bulletin Virginia McClaughry
cited as being violated by the six-month sec checks
on OT 7s. But this bulletin was effectively cancelled
by LRH himself when he sent the orders down to Senior
C/S Int Ray Mithoff and me about the FPRD. This is where
it started. All of these actions were taken to increase
income. It is the same with the six-month checks. They
are an income source for Flag. The senior concern is
income; the tech and the well being of the preclear
want to make sure it is clear that this whole idea came from
LRH, not from Miscavige. Miscavige is continuing to carry
out LRH's orders as well as he knows how. But make no mistake
about it: Miscavige is doing his best to forward Command Intention,
which is contained in the huge LRH orders data base of the
INCOMM computer system of Scientology. The LRH orders database
is a hidden data line that no one knows about outside of Int
management. And it is these orders that Miscavige and his
people are operating on.
I got to Int in 1982 there was an extreme amount of paranoia.
Everyone was constantly looking for plants, dupes, FBI agents,
you name it, and all of this was a reflection of Hubbard's
own mental state, without any question or doubt.
that it was coming from Hubbard when I learned about the orders
that were pouring in from him. It worked like this: Hubbard
would talk/rant into a Dictaphone and fill up many cassettes,
which were then transported by Pat Broeker (who lived with
Hubbard in Creston, where he was in hiding) to David Miscavige.
The two of them would meet on Friday nights somewhere between
Creston and Los Angeles to make the switch. Miscavige would
give Broeker all the reports for the past week, and Broeker
would give Miscavige all the orders for the new week in cassette
form. Miscavige turned the tapes over to Susie Bennick, who
ran the unit that did the transcribing. She and her little
transcribers would type out all the orders and then they would
get distributed to all the recipients - at ASI, RTC, CMO Int,
Exec Strata, and Gold.
often than not these transcribed orders from Hubbard conflicted
with existing policy written by Hubbard himself. Hubbard was
very upset with the fact that he could no longer order into
any Scientology organization at will. Miscavige told Hubbard
that Scientology would never get tax-exempt status as long
as he managed Orgs. So instead of issuing orders, Hubbard
started giving "advice." All the orders in the LRH
orders database are called "advices," because Hubbard
wasn't supposed to give orders any more.
is a unit located at Gold called R (for LRH) Technical Research
and Compilations Unit - RTRC -- that does nothing but revise
existing tech and policy in an effort to reconcile all of
these advices with the bulletins and policy letters that Hubbard
wrote. This may explain why Hubbard is still issuing tech
and policy long after his death.
is just one more thing I want to talk about.
earlier post (which can be found on Charlotte Kates' website)
I have already written about at least two versions of OT 8
being released, so I won't repeat it here. Today, I understand
Scientology has suspended delivery of OT 8 until people "honestly"
complete OT 7, meaning, I guess, that they get rid of all
for more BTs is one of the few principles of Scientology tech
that seems to be consistent throughout the years.
gone up the Bridge to Total Freedom at least twice - by way
of the old OT levels in 1978, and then by way of the new ones
from 1979 through 1991, when I attested to OT 7. On the day
I attested to the new OT 7 in 1991 I was at Int in Gilman
Hot Springs. There were a least 150 people standing around
clapping for me. I was no longer an executive in the Sea Org.
I had been busted and sent to the RPF in 1987 when Pat and
Annie Broeker tried to take over Scientology and were both
completely broken by David Miscavige. Miscavige considered
me an enemy because I refused to help him bust the Broekers.
So by 1991 when I attested to OT 7 I was reduced to making
video copies of International management events. Before I
was busted, I used to be one of the speakers at these events.
back at it now, I realize how pathetic all of this was. Here
I was supposed to be attesting to being at cause over Matter,
Energy, Space and Time, and all I was good for was dubbing
videocassettes. My OT abilities were really shining through!
Everyone was clapping for me!
that night, there was a power failure at Gold and security
guards informed us that there was a possible intruder on the
base. About 200 staff were made to stand outside in a parking
lot huddled close together in the dark while security looked
for the intruder. I was so powerful as an OT that night that
I got to hide in the dark with others who were just as OT
as I was!
leaving Scientology, I have found out that my friend Tom and
his mother both gave up and left Scientology almost 10 years
do not adequately express the pain and hard work I've been
through to get my mind back since I left Scientology. Be that
as it may, I am living proof that at least some measure of
recovery is possible. But here is one thing I know for sure:
There are no OTs in Scientology. There never have been and
never will be. There is endless BT hunting, but I can give
you a hot tip on this as well:
are no BTs either.