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going through a grill and nothing more.
Det. Sudler:
Okay. So physically she was okay?
Portolano:
Yes, she was.
Det. Sudler:
Now, you did mention that she had some I guess
emotional problems. . .maybe some. . .you know... mental problems or at least. . .you know. . .some symptoms that may have’ been shock or other things that kinda presented to you that.. .that evening. Uh. . .with all that was said to you, did she indicate that she had a particular problem with any. . .you know.. .person or individual.. .umm. . .that she was afraid of or. . .you know.. .any reason why she had mentioned that she was so tired?
Portolano:
She...
Det. Sudler:
Did she elaborate on that?
Portolano:
She. . .she didn’t elaborate on why she was tired.
13mm.. .she didn’t.. .she.. .most.. .most of this was internal.. .umm. . .stress I should say, because it wasn’t that the church was doing things to her. It was that the church was presenting to her things that she had done wrong that she didn’t know. She said “I didn’t know I was doing these things wrong”. And she so much wanted to be in compliance with the church and she was so it seemed, grief stricken, that she was out of line. 13mm. . . that “Oh my gosh....”
sort of like “Oh my gosh, look. . . look how bad I am. . . they’ve just told me I’m doing this, this, and ‘this wrong”. So she wasn’t so much.. .it wasn’t
. towards any certain person. It was that she was
internalizing of “Oh gosh, I’m so bad”. .
Det. Sudler:
Okay. Umm. . .did she talk about her performance at
work or her performance in the church? .
Portolano:
I asked her what she’ did because for some reason

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